On 29th November, Mercury came out of the retrograde it had been in for most of November. This was two days after Saturn finished its near six month retrograde in Aries and then Pisces. I never used to think anything of this until I started my spiritual journey, but now I take notice. And this one has hit me hard, in a good way.
Just as a quick explainer, I never used to really think that a planet could affect my life. So, as a Sagittarius I didn’t see how my ruling planet of Jupiter could impact my life. How being born under a particular set of cosmic circumstances could dictate who I was and what happens to me. And then, I got the answer. That, basically, did I really think that these planets were just rocks hurtling around the same sun at varying degrees of speed and distance just because? That if I really believe we are all one, all connected across the universe as I do, how could I believe that a) these pieces of rock were there by sheer accident and b) they weren’t a part of me too. As I have written here before, nothing in this universe is extraneous, nothing is accidental. Those pieces of rock have a significant purpose on this planet. They protect the only planet in the habitable zone, for example. Jupiter, my ruling planet, protects the earth by using its immense gravitational pull to absorb, deflect or capture the asteroids and comets that might otherwise collide with earth. Accidental? I think not. It is all like a ballet, playing out in perfect and beautiful rhythm and flow. Not just in our solar system but within our galaxy and the wider universe. All of it has an impact on us as we have an impact on it. Because we are all one. So, yes, I know the Mercury and Saturn retrogrades have had an impact on me and their going direct has brought me a level of clarity as I have emerged from their retrogrades (if not their shadows yet) that I have never before experienced.
November has been tumultuous and I have learned many lessons. And the last six months have been seismic in my life as anyone who’s read my blogs in that period will know. I’ve burned my life to the ground in reality, left my past behind me in terms of material things. Which is both terrifying and exciting in the possibilities of what the future will hold. And terrifying because all those years of work, gone. In an instant. But that was the old me that I have let go, now it’s time to embrace the new me. Or the true me which is closer to the truth. The woman who no longer masks who she really is.
I learned during the Mercury retrograde, as I wrote here, what standing in your power truly means. And I’ve held onto that since that realisation. I have often asked myself – what does standing in my power, in this moment, actually mean? And it’s helped me take certain actions and make certain decisions. Now, I have the added benefit of clarity. Since yesterday, I have felt the clarity on situations in my life growing. Clarity on why some people behave the way they do and the patterns I am repeating by being involved with them. And now I feel as though, for the first time, I can see my future with crystal clarity. And in being able to see that, to know what standing in my power is leading to. How standing in the power of that future, of that person I am becoming, will get me to the life I have dreamed of for so long.
I am a free spirit, I have always been a free spirit. But as always with free spirits, there are others who want to bask in the reflected glow of that but tie you down at the same time. They want the warmth of that reflected glow but they are too frightened of what that means. The truths that have to be confronted and accepted. The fire that you have to walk through. They don’t want that, they just want the end result. So they hang onto the coattails of free spirits and wish they were like them. And if you are, like me, particularly susceptible to that energy and a raging empath who can’t always see that you’re not feeling your emotions but someone else’s, it pulls you down. Then that energy starts to steal some of that free spirit in you. It judges you, it tells you to dim your light because you’re ‘too much’ for other people. And maybe you’ve had some experiences in life that make you fear rejection, so you do those things. And try, as I have said before, to be the round peg for the round hole.
I have had, as I say, some real insights during this retrograde period. Not only standing in my power, but actually seeing in flashes the reality of the life I am meant to live. I have started planning my new business venture with my friend in earnest, and we are building the content for our platform which will launch in the new year. And nothing could feel as though it fits me like a glove more. During the course of this retrograde, I have found my purpose completely. Yes, it is to be a writer still that will always be true for me. But it is also to embrace my spirituality even more, go deeper with that. To be the healer I have always been told I should be, to explore my psychic powers, the clairs that I am opening up to and am abundant in. And to be really public about this. Because this is me. I am that free spirit and those who don’t like this aspect of me, who try to look down on it are not my people. I let them go with love.
I’m not masking anymore. I am tired of feeling as though I should be embarrassed of who I truly am. Nothing says standing in your power less than feeling ashamed of your true self. I don’t care if people laugh at me, that’s their prerogative. They don’t need to be a part of my life in the future. I am not going to find my tribe, I am going to create my tribe. As I am going to create my new future.
Who would have thought it would take two planets going direct to bring me this clarity? I wouldn’t have done once. Now, it makes perfect sense to me.
Louisa Simpson 