I am writing a daily blog about my family and I being homeless to try and work through my emotions on the issue as well as take the learnings from it. And if I help someone along the way, I will be very happy.
I asked Source/Universe/God for some support regarding finances yesterday. A little while later, I had the image in my head of writing a strongly-worded note to the benefits system which has not responded to my request for sickness benefits. I have done that, so we will wait and see what comes from that. I also had a dream about someone who has sadly died recently, and while I can’t remember it strongly I think it was a message that it was linked around work (the person in question was linked to work) and, therefore, money. We will see what comes from all of that, but one thing I do know is that I will sort my financial situation out sooner rather than later. I am determined about that.
I had some disappointing news today to add to what is rattling around in my head constantly. But instead of my immediate reaction to the disappointment being one of spiralling as it would have been not long ago, I just thought ‘something better will come along’. I was disappointed, yes, but I also realised that the issue had focused my mind on something that I had been thinking about. Part of it was what do I really want in a certain area of my life, and I really hadn’t known. But now I know what appeals to me, what is important to me, so at least I am a step forward in that regard. I genuinely do take that as a win.
Life is always teaching us a lesson, I know this. I started writing this blog today being very ‘woe is me’ because the situation isn’t how I want it to be. But as I wrote I got frustrated with myself – why am I being so defeatist? So, I decided instead to take control and remember what is really happening. The fact that I did ask for help and did get some inspired actions to take which I have done. And, yes, the news I had today was disappointing but I literally heard the words in my head ‘something better is coming’ and I am laser focused now on what I really want on a particular aspect of my life. Something I had been uncertain about and jumping from one idea to another. Now, I know and as I say, I am taking that as a win.
We can’t bring to us that which we are not focused on. And I am now drawing an image together, a vision for my life that is coming together into a coherent whole. Maybe that is what all this has been about, what it has been for. In which case, it has been worth it.
Because I am soaring. I am thriving. I am successful. I am grateful.
Louisa Simpson 