I am writing a daily blog about my family and I being homeless. I am trying to process my emotions around this as well as take the learnings from the experience. And if I help someone in the process, I will be very happy.
I finally had a good night’s sleep last night. I did wake up briefly at around 4.30am but I soon went back to sleep and I had a long sleep which I needed. I feel that I have also slept off the threatening cold that many around me appear to have succumbed to. So, altogether I feel the real benefits of having a decent night’s sleep.
I also did not have that awful sense of anxiety hit me today. I don’t know if the healing activity I did yesterday morning helped, I will be keeping an eye on it but it wasn’t present this morning for which I am grateful. It’s taking things one day at a time, really.
I went to see my step-father today who is home from hospital after recovering sufficiently from sepsis to be discharged. He is still very weak and requires a walking frame which is quite a shock, seeing a man who is usually so big and strong be as weak as a kitten. And seeing a man who isn’t really emotional be very much so. He will make a full recovery, luckily, and my mum seems to be much more settled now that he is home – we had a good interaction today. I’m pleased that things seem to be settling back down for them and I know my son is pleased to see him be better. I don’t know that I will ever trust my mum the way I did after everything that has happened, but I am happy to help my son keep his relationship with her.
I have been doing a lot of writing today which always helps me to feel settled.
All in all, today has been perfectly fine. I feel settled in myself despite the fact my housing situation hasn’t changed, that I still haven’t resolved my situation vis-a-vis sickness pay, and on the face of it nothing has changed. Except me. I have changed. I am leaning into life, surrendering. I know big change is coming, and all will be more than well. And that’s all I need to know.
Because I am soaring. I am thriving. I successful. I am grateful.
Louisa Simpson 